Want to know a secret? I’m more punk than you. That’s right, I said it. I have got to be more punk than you. You know why? Because while the counter-culture was changing musical history, I was moving counter to the counter culture. That’s right, I made it 26 years into my life without ever really listening to Nirvana. I even visited the Rock and Roll Museum in Seattle and saw the exhibition “Taking Punk To The Masses”, which featured a ton of rare memorabilia from Nirvana’s torrid past. Despite all that, I still possessed not more than a passing interest in the band. I showed more interest in the fact that Sub Pop Records had played a substantive part in Nirvana’s explosion into the music world. Sub Pop would later go on to release one of my favorite records, Sunny Day Real Estate’s Diary, as well as some other notable albums like a Death Cab For Cutie single and The Postal Service’s one and only LP.
I knew the general details about Nirvana. They played grunge and Kurt Cobain was a tragic rock star, Courtney Love is a whore, and Dave Grohl would go on to form the Foo Fighters with one of the guys from Sunny Day Real Estate and all the rest of that jazz.
Perhaps one of the things that put me off of Nirvana was how many people I saw wearing Nirvana t-shirts in high school and what those people were generally like. I still see these same kind of people. From the too-cool-for-words poser strolling through Wal-Mart to the way too young to be at a punk rock show kid wearing his black Nirvana shirt from Hot Topic. Not that I would choose to listen to (or not listen to) certain music just because of its fan base but the only other t-shirts I used to see as much were Slipknot and Insane Clown Posse. I may have just gotten a false connotation of douche baggery in my head.
I knew who Kurt Cobain was. When I bought the vinyl re-issue of Jawbreaker’s seminal album, Dear You, I loved the picture on the inside of Kurt Cobain sitting there wearing the classic Jawbreaker shirt with the Morton salt girl on it.
I had heard Nirvana songs, mostly as interpreted by the bands I listen to. John Nolan had recorded a cover of “Drain You” when he was in Straylight Run. Yellowcard had provided a cover of “All Apologies”. Ben Gibbard even made "All Apologies" a part of his set list for his solo acoustic tour. There were numerous bands that had recorded covers that meant nothing to me. I figured that Nirvana must have been pretty important but, outside of that, I still didn't really care.
Flash forward to me sitting here at work, listening to the all-too-awful pop station playing on the radio in the cubicle in front of me and a 90's nostalgic alternative internet radio station playing from the cubicle behind me. It's not a diverse collection of music, certainly. You are bound to hear Sublime and Nirvana at least three times an hour, amidst other music like Red Hot Chili Peppers. I began paying a little bit closer attention to the Nirvana songs. I don't know what the point of no return was. I don't know when something clicked. But it did.
All of a sudden, I could not get enough Nirvana. Nevermind became my new favorite record. I read all about the history of the band and their discography. I now understood the fascination and why the music means so much to so many.
It's not that Nirvana were the sole purveyors of a new kind of music called Grunge. At its heart, it is still punk rock, hence the name of the exhibit "Taking Punk To The Masses". Some people still don't understand the Nirvana thing, It's really quite simple - they wrote really beautiful pop songs that were absolutely filthy, dirty and sloppy. The melodic differences between Nirvana and say, The Beatles, is really not as big as you would think. Perhaps that is where Kurt Cobain's biggest strength resided, in his ability to craft perfect little gems from waves of noise.
Nirvana proved that the alternative could crossover into the mainstream. Who could have imagined that an album recorded by a bunch of punks from Aberdeen, WA (a town of no more than 20,000 people) would go on to sell over 30 million copies worldwide? It was all the justification that the music scene needed to show that alternative music in general could top one of pop's bestselling "artists", Michael Jackson, on the Billboard Charts. It's a trend that would continue throughout the early and mid 90's. The late 90's would grant success to horrible "alternative" music like Limp Bizkit, Linkin Park, and every other kind of ridiculous nu-metal, rap hybrid. Even as we crossed into the new millennium, the alternative shifted more towards pop punk. Despite existing for near a decade, bands like Green Day began selling more records than they could have ever imagined. Thus, the trend has continued, for better or (mostly) worse.
It is interesting that I would discover Nirvana on the 20th anniversary of the release of Nevermind. Never having listened to them before and then suddenly being inundated with their legacy is a strange feeling. All at the same time, my favorite artists were popping up with tributes and compilations celebrating the seminal album. Frank Turner appeared on Kerrang!'s Nevermind Forever, where he contributed "On A Plain". SPIN also put out a compilation called Newermind. Kevin Devine even recorded Nevermind in its entirety and released it for free. It's truly amazing how similar his voice sounds to Kurt's. There have been several bands that have recorded live Nirvana tribute shows, including Weezer (under the pseudonym Goat Punishment) and the always fun Arrogant Sons of Bitches.
After 20 years, Nirvana's legacy continues to grow. As the artists that inspire us nowadays expose us to the artists that inspired them, newer generations will continue to hear about bands like Nirvana. I'm just sad that it took me this long to give them a real chance.
Yeah, I might be rehashing what everyone has known for two decades now, but it's still new to me.
Now if you'll excuse me, I'm off to listen to this new band I just discovered. I think they're going to be huge. Their name is kind of weird though... The Smashing Pumpkins, I think? Keep an eye on these guys.